I must have misheard him. He canโt truly mean he wants me to move into his rooms. Does he really think Iโm that much of a baby, needing constant watching?
โBut it was only one dream,โ I protested, my voice still shaky. โI swear itโs not a big deal.โ
Sinclair purred again, and I felt my insides melting against my will. โMaybe it is, maybe it isnโt. I just want you to sleep easily.โ Before I could stop him, he lifted me into his arms.
โSinclairโโ He interrupted me with a growl, and I quickly amended myself. โDominic, this really isnโt necessary. I can sleep on my own.โ
โIโm sure you can,โ he conceded. โBut I want you close.โ
โAnd what about what I want?โ The words slipped out before I could stop them, and Sinclair paused, looking down at me with an appraising gaze.
โAnd what do you want, Ella?โ he asked huskily, his deep voice reverberating down my spine.
I opened my mouth to tell him I wanted to be alone, in my own space, and without his intimidating presence. However, I couldnโt make the words come. Why couldnโt I seem to stop myself from speaking when I didnโt want to, then couldnโt make myself talk when I did? What was this man doing to me?
Sinclair smirked. โYou know the problem, donโt you?โ he taunted. I could only shake my head in reply. โYou canโt lie to me. The pup is making you more and more like a wolf, and wolves canโt lie to their Alpha, not directly, at least.โ
The breath seemed to evaporate from my lungs. I couldnโt lie to him? My eyes widened as I realized the implications, and I wanted to protest that such a thing wasnโt fairโpeople are entitled to their secrets!
โBut youโre not my Alpha,โ I finally protested, my voice sounding very small.
Sinclair cocked a brow. โArenโt I?โ After a beat, he continued toward the door, as if this settled the matter. I didnโt know why I didnโt object furtherโmaybe because heโd clearly made up his mind, maybe because I didnโt really want him to change it. I let him carry me out into the hall, flushing scarlet when I saw so many guards waiting outside my room. Had all these men heard me screaming like a baby? Surely I hadnโt spoken while unconscious?
โDo you always have this many guards posted at night?โ I squeaked.
โThis pup is the most important thing to me in the world,โ Sinclair responded simply. โYou can expect lots of guards to be around from now on.โ
Of course, I thought. Itโs all for the pup. Iโm just an afterthought. Will I ever be anything more?
I didnโt need to ask Sinclair to know the answerโit was already painfully obvious: no. In a world of mystically powerful beings like wolves, a human like me could never be anything but an afterthought. The only reason he was putting up with me was the pregnancy. And honestly, the only reason I was putting up with him was our arrangementโฆ so why did it hurt so much?
The next morning, I woke to find a maid setting down a room service tray by my bedside, stacked high with my favorite foods. At first, the smell of fruit and oatmeal had my stomach growling, but before I could so much as raise a spoon to my lips, a wave of nausea overtook me. I rushed to the bathroom and retched, groaning pitifully.
When I finally finished with the joys of pregnancy, I returned to Sinclairโs sprawling king-sized bed. The food, which had looked so appetizing a moment ago, now made my stomach churn. However, I noticed a folded note on the tray. My name was scrawled across the front in the swooping handwriting I now recognized as Sinclairโs.
Ella,
Iโve arranged an interview for you this morning, with the leading news outlets in the area. Weโve been getting a lot of requests, and the reporter promised you would only have to answer questions I approved. Call me if you have any questions. Iโll see you tonight.
Yours,
Dominic
An interview?! Iโd never given an interview in my life! And this wouldnโt even be an interview as myself; this would be an undercover interview, pretending to be a completely different person, a completely different species! What kind of questions were they going to ask? What on earth was I going to say to them? What was I going to wear?
Two hours later, I was seated in front of an intimidating man in a sharp-looking suit, feeling very small and out of place. A camera was poised on my face, and I was trying to look sereneโrather than panicked. I found a pretty sweater dress in the wardrobe Sinclair had procured for me and decided that simple elegance was the best approach. Now I wondered if Iโd miscalculated. The reporter was watching me with sharp eyes, and I could already feel myself blushing.
โSo, Ella, it will come as no surprise to you that many shifters in the Moon Valley Pack and beyond are very curious about you,โ he began obliquely. โWith you by his side, the Alpha is poised to become our next King, yet no one knows anything about you.โ
โI can understand how that might worry some pack members,โ I smiled gently, trying to appear confident and self-assured.
โHow did you and Dominic meet?โ he pressed. โWhen did it happen? Iโd love to hear the whole story.โ
Sinclair and I had discussed this at length, even before this interview arose. โWell, it will be obvious to all those in the know that we arenโt fated, but I canโt help thinking that the Goddess didnโt play a hand in our meeting. For years, my family in the Shadow Pack insisted we had no other relationsโapparently my parents cut ties with the Moon Valley before I was even born. It wasnโt until they passed away that I learned about my cousins hereโincluding Aileen Corentin.โ
Weโd decided the story should be as close to the truth as possible, so my fake identity was an orphan, just like I am in reality. โI came to visit her after making contact, and of course, sheโs the wife of Beta Hugo. One day, I was having lunch with Aileen and Hugo, and Dominic walked inโฆ and the rest is history.โ
โBut you havenโt known each other very long, is that correct?โ the reporter inquired.
โYes,โ I confirmed. โBut when itโs true love, it doesnโt take long for the heart to recognize its mate. And then we were blessed with a pup without even trying.โ
โSome pack members might be worried that you come from such a humble background; you have no experience leading,โ the reporter stated bluntly. โHow would you respond to their fears?โ
This was a question Sinclair hadnโt prepared me for in our earlier discussions regarding our cover. Weโd decided what we would tell people about how we met, nothing more. โI would say that great leaders come from all kinds of backgrounds, and in fact, my humble origins give me insight into the needs of everyday shifters in a way that an aristocratic upbringing would not. Iโm in touch with what regular people want and need, and I can speak for them with empathy and understanding, representing their voices in a forum where theyโre often left out.โ
The reporter arched his brows, and I knew Iโd impressed him. Take that! I thought triumphantly. People always assumed I didnโt have a brain in my head because Iโm young and attractive, not to mention I chose to work caring for children. But Iโm no fool, and hopefully, this will help the shifters see that.
โAnd what do you think our society needs most at this time in history? What is the biggest issue the future King and Queen need to address?โ he asked.
I navigated his questions with more or less difficulty for the next half hour, feeling better about some responses than others, and praying that I hadnโt put my foot in my mouth. I thought Iโd done well, but I was completely exhausted. At first, part of me was excited to pretend to be someone other than myselfโalmost like playing dress-up or make-believe. However, that initial interest disappeared very quickly when I realized just how stressful it is to constantly be acting.
I know what itโs like to put up walls around myself, but this was the first time Iโd ever been forced to blatantly lie to those around me, to try to pass myself off as someone else. All at once, the gravity of this deal Iโd struck slammed into me. If I was exhausted now, how was I going to feel when Iโd been doing this for months? Years? Could I really do this for the rest of my life? What would happen if the truth came out? What would people do when they learned I was a fraud?
Because, I realized, thatโs what I am. This wasnโt just a game or a play we were performing; I was actively deceiving people. I was campaigning for a public office and lying every step of the way. Guilt and worry assailed me in a tidal wave. This is wrong! I thought frantically. I have to talk to Sinclair.