โWhat?โ I squeak, my voice catching in my throat. The moment the words left Sinclairโs mouth, my blood ran cold, and I felt as though I might topple over. I must have misheard him; surely he didnโt mean what I think he does.
โThat night you heard someone growling in your bathroom?โ Sinclair explained, stepping forward as though he wanted to reach for me, but stopping short when I flinched away. โI told you I didnโt smell anythingโฆ but I lied. There was someone in your rooms, I just didnโt want to scare you.โ
โAnd you let me go back there, knowing thereโd been an intruder?โ I demanded, indignation swirling amidst my fear, surprise, and sorrow.
โSweetheart, I had the guards do a thorough search of the grounds immediately. They were long gone, and Iโve had you sleeping in my rooms ever since. I also increased the guards during the day when I knew youโd be back there,โ he said. โTrust me, Iโve done everything possible to ensure your safety.โ
โExcept tell me that I was in danger!โ I cried. โItโs no wonder you flipped out when I went to see your father! And you blamed me as if I was supposed to know about the threat!โ
โEllaโโ He began placatingly.
โNo!โ I cut him off, stomping my foot in pure wrath. โHow am I supposed to know itโs dangerous if you donโt tell me, Dominic?โ I exclaimed. โYou didnโt even tell me about the rogue attack, and that had nothing to do with me! All this time I thought you were being overbearing and overprotective, but I had no clue what was happening in my own life!โ Too late, I realized my earlier desire to leave before crying was a lost cause. Tears slid down my cheeks as I continued. โHow could you do that! You know what I went through with Mike. I spent years thinking I knew my situation, when it was all liesโand you turned around and did the exact same thing!โ
Dominicโs usually golden skin paled. โGoddess Ella, I never even thought about it that way,โ he admitted. โI was just trying to protect you and the pup. I didnโt want you to be afraid.โ
โWell, all you actually did was make a fool of me,โ I informed him stiffly. โAnd for the record, you also made me more vulnerable to danger. Do you think I would have ever considered sneaking away without guards if I knew someone might actually be after me? Do you believe I would ever risk my baby that way?โ
โElla, Iโm sorry,โ Sinclair professed, and I was amazed to see how earnest he looked. Gone was the bossy alpha who ordered everyone about and laid down the law when they defied him, replaced by a man truly humbled. โIโm truly, truly sorry. I was inconsiderate and patronizingโI assumed I knew what was best and never consulted youโฆ Iโve been a hypocrite; Iโve been going on about being a team, but Iโve been acting like a tyrant,โ he continued. โYou were right, and thatโs not the kind of parent I want to be.โ
Despite my simmering anger, I was completely aghast. I never expected a man as powerful as Sinclair to admit a mistakeโor any fault, for that matter. I thoroughly believed that people of his ilk never took responsibility for their actions because they had the privilege of passing it off onto someone else. Even men without means, like Mike, often couldnโt admit when they were wrong. In fact, as a woman, the number of times Iโve heard any man tell me Iโm right in a disagreement isโฆ well, I think this is the first time.
โCan you ever forgive me?โ Sinclair continued, coming forward to brush the hair back from my face and look deep into my eyes.
I crossed my arms over my chest, tilted my chin up, and gave him a haughty sniff to hide my amazement. โAs long as you promise never to do it again.โ
โI promise that Iโll try to do better,โ Sinclair vowed, taking hold of my arms. โIโm still an alpha, and hopefully a king. Itโs in my nature to protect at all costs, and those instincts are strongest when it comes to she-wolves and pups. When I think about you in danger, my wolf fairly loses his mind, and I am truly concerned about this pregnancy. Youโre high-risk as a human, and the longer your blood pressure stays elevated, the more likely you are to become high-risk in shifter terms, too.โ
His words sent a frisson of fear through me. Iโd been trying to tell myself all this worry was his overprotectiveness gone mad, but when he put it in these terms, I realized my baby and I might have a harder road ahead than I realized. I hadnโt considered myself high-risk simply because Iโm a human carrying a shifter pup, but it makes sense. Again, I recalled the doctorโs warnings about the size of the fetus, the spotting incident, and now my persistent stress. I really donโt mind if I suffer, but the idea of my baby being at risk was enough to bowl me over.
โSo I canโt say for certain that Iโll never slip up again,โ Sinclair forged ahead, massaging my arms with the pads of his thumbs, โbut I promise to always consider your perspective and consult you whenever I can.โ
โThank you,โ I murmured, leaning into his warmth.
He nodded and kissed the top of my head, wrapping his strong arms around me. โDo you still want to sleep in your rooms?โ
โWould you let me?โ I inquired, already testing his resolve.
Sinclair offered a wolfish grin. โAs long as you let me post enough guards at the door.โ
I chuckled and shook my head. โI want to stay with you.โ
His muscles untensed slightly, and he purred in contentment. โGood. Itโs been a very long night.โ
โYou can say that again,โ I agreed, wriggling out of his hold to retrieve a nightdress from my designated drawer in his dresser.
A little while later, we were curled beneath the plush covers of his king-sized bed. Sinclair always slept shirtlessโnot that Iโm complainingโso he was stretched out on his back as I rested my uninjured cheek on his bare chest, immediately soothed by his intoxicating scent. I once asked him why I find smelling him so soothing, and he explained itโs just the pup. Still, I couldnโt help thinking that I would have loved his scent even if I werenโt โbreeding,โ as he calls it.
โAre you sure youโre alright?โ Sinclair asked, tracing his fingers in soothing patterns down my back. โAfter the attack, I mean.โ
I nodded, brushing my cheek over the fine hairs on his chest, tickling my nose. โIt was nothing.โ
A loud rumble vibrated against my cheek. โNot to me,โ Sinclair growled.
My hand rested on the hard contours of his abs, and I found myself caressing his soft skin, hoping to soothe him as he so often soothes me. โHonestly, the most shocking part of the whole ordeal was seeing them shiftโฆ Iโve never seen anything like it. I still canโt believe it.โ In fact, that might go a long way to explaining why the entire ordeal still doesnโt quite feel real to me.
โWere you very afraid?โ Sinclair pressed, taking advantage of my sudden willingness to talk.
โI was more afraid for the baby than anything else,โ I confessed. โThatโs what hurt more than anything, when I thought that my brashness might have cost it, instead of just me.โ
A low purr rumbled in Sinclairโs chest. โNothing they did or would have done was caused by you, Ella.โ
I huffed a laugh. โIt seems like there are an awful lot of people telling me things arenโt my fault lately,โ I mused aloud. โBut at a certain point, one has to think the common denominator is common for a reason.โ