โBed rest?โ I repeat, glancing nervously at Sinclair. โYou mean until the baby comes?โ
โNo, I donโt think we have to go quite that far yet,โ the doctor replies with a kind smile. โFor now, letโs start with a few weeks. We can take it as it comes after that.โ
โWhat does that mean exactly?โ Sinclair inquires, his large body looming over me. His warmth, which sometimes reminds me too much of a blazing furnace when weโre curled up in bed together, is a welcome balm now, washing over me in a tide of cozy comfort. โShe canโt get out of bed at all?โ
โNo, itโs not that severe,โ the doctor assures us. โElla can get up to use the restroom or move around to change positions. She can take two short walks every dayโone in the morning, one in the eveningโbut no more than twenty minutes each. If you feel tired or overwhelmed before then, you need to stop. Absolutely no stairs, no strenuous physical activity, and no standing for more than twenty minutes at a time, for any reason.โ
My heart sinks, but I try to hide my disappointment. Itโs not the end of the world; it just means Iโm going to be a bit bored. โDo I have to stay completely on my back, or is sitting up okay?โ
โChoose whatever position is most comfortable,โ he continues, looking back and forth between us. โMore importantly, avoid stress, whether youโre in bed, on the couch, or anywhere else. That means no campaign events, no excitement.โ
โAnd if she does get excited, despite our efforts?โ Sinclair asks, an odd note in his voice.
โIโll send you home with some sedatives for emergencies. And while I advise keeping sexual activity to a minimum, if tension builds, itโs better to indulge it than to resistโjust remind your wolf to be gentle with her.โ
I blink. Who said anything about sex? Is that what Sinclair meant, and I just missed the nuance? How is that not physical exertion?
โDonโt be daft, you know orgasms are the best stress relievers,โ the little voice in my head remarks.
Oh Goddess, when was the last time I had one? I think back, recalling the last night I slept away from Sinclair, when I was finally free to relieve the fire he constantly keeps lit inside me.
โToo long, and you have to admit it would be nice to have one you didnโt give yourself,โ the voice answers.
โThat would be a first,โ I snort. Mike is the only other man Iโve been with, and he never seemed to understand that women canโt just magically climax with a few thrusts. I always enjoyed sex for the intimacy, and though it always felt good, orgasms had always been my own responsibilityโmine to seek after he rolled over and fell asleep.
โYou know it wouldnโt be that way with Sinclair,โ my conscience intimates, sparking memories of the few times weโd gotten carried awayโglimpses of the pleasure he could give me if I would only succumb to his charms. His words the day of the ballโafter the incident, as Iโve decided to call itโring in my mind: โNow, would you like me to make you feel good?โ Nothing about his own desires, nothing about going furtherโjust a selfless offer to fulfill my needs.
โShut up,โ I think sharply, unsure whether Iโm addressing the memory or my inner voice. Sinclair is watching me like a hawk, and the hungry expression on his face makes me worry my expression is giving away my lurid thoughts. Before he can speak, I lean into his side, turning my face towards his shoulder to breathe in his scent. Iโm doing it for comfort, yes, but also to hide my blushing features. Sinclair purrs softly, stroking my nape, and thanks the doctor.
โI appreciate you coming on such short notice. Can I take her home now?โ he asks bluntly, as if Iโm the injured party.
โDominic, youโre in much worse condition than I am,โ I remind him sulkily. โWe should be asking your doctors, not mine.โ
He raises a dark eyebrow at my challenge but otherwise ignores me. He looks back to the OB/GYN, who smiles warmly. โSheโs free to go as soon as I write this prescription. Iโll check on her the day after tomorrow, but call me if anything comes up before then.โ
โOh fine, ignore me, talk about me like Iโm not here,โ I grumble. โThat will keep me calm.โ
โDonโt worry, Ella, youโre in good hands,โ the doctor replies, unfazed by my petulance. โIโll see you soon.โ
The moment he turns away, Sinclair moves in front of me, sliding his muscular arms around my middle and burying his face in my neck. Iโm so surprised by the gesture that I barely notice I forgot to thank the doctor. Sinclair isnโt growling, scolding, kissing, or trying to sneak a caress; heโs simply hugging meโsqueezing me with barely restrained force.
Sensing this isnโt his usual mischief or bossiness, I wrap my arms around his broad shoulders, returning the embrace and nuzzling his scruffy jaw. โHey, what is it?โ I murmur, holding him tightly to show my concern, not a desire to be released. Itโs only when I feel the bandages beneath his shirt that I remember his wounds, but as soon as I try to pull away, Sinclair rumbles in protest.
He lifts his face, just enough to speak into my ear. โToday was horrible,โ he says, his voice gravelly. โEvery last minute of it. And now this.โ
โIโm okay, though,โ I answer softly. โAnd so is the babyโthis is just a precaution.โ
โI donโt like it,โ he insists, sounding as sullen as I felt a few minutes ago. โYou shouldnโt have to worry about this on top of everything elseโฆ and I hate that I canโtโฆ I canโt protect you from this.โ
And here I thought I was on a roller coaster of emotions. In a few hours, Sinclair had gone from rabid protector to bossy nurse to teasing, would-be lover. Now here he is, clinging to me like a child to a teddy bear, beside himself with helplessness. I suddenly realize his day started even worse than mineโwaking up drugged with a psychotic ex, then finding me missing, tracking me down, and weathering a tantrum he didnโt deserve.
โIโm sorry,โ I tell him, my voice smaller than Iโd like. โIโm sorry for the way I acted earlier, and Iโm sorry I scared you when I ran, and for the accident, and for fainting. I wish I could turn back time and undo this entire dayโand yesterday, for that matter.โ
โItโs certainly been an eventful week,โ he jokes, his deep bass dripping with irony. โBut none of it has been your fault.โ
โIโm still sorry,โ I repeat, kissing his neck. โYouโve been killing yourself taking care of me, and Iโve been a brat. You deserve better.โ I hate that Iโm near tears, but I donโt think my wild emotions will even out anytime soon. โI think itโs time you let me return the favor.โ
โYou already did,โ he purrs, rocking me slightly as he strokes my hair. โYou kept me calm today when no one else could. You probably saved the lives of some of those nurses.โ
At first, I take it as a joke, but then I realize heโs probably being literal. โItโs not enough; I want to do more.โ
โYou just got put on bed rest, little one,โ Sinclair reminds me, pulling back to cup my face in his massive hands. Despite his stern tone, his green eyes soften as he looks down at me. โI appreciate that you want to help me, Ella. But the only thing that could fix this would be for the doctor to walk back over here and tell me his diagnosis was a mistake. Iโm afraid Iโm going to be feeling this way until our baby is here and youโre both safe and healthy.โ
โYouโre right,โ I acknowledge, clasping his wrists and giving him my best puppy-dog eyes. โI canโt fix this, but there must be something I can do to make you feel betterโeven on bed rest.โ A devious thought occurs to me. โYou know I wonโt be able to truly relax if Iโm worried about you.โ
Sinclair huffs out a laugh, closing his eyes and shaking his head. โI swear, youโre going to be the death of me, trouble.โ
I peek up at him from beneath my lashes. โIs that a yes?โ