Chapter 505
โIโll make it up to you for what my father did.โ
The words felt like a dull knife twisting in my chest. I looked straight at him. โHayden, are you really just accepting this?โ
โHavenโt you been digging into this the whole time?โ
โIs this all you foundโthat your father tampered with the brakes and caused my parentsโ deaths?โ
Weโd suspected it might be true, but heโd promised me answers, promised me closure. And now, instead of giving me that, he was justโฆ accepting this inconclusive report. Even the police couldnโt say it for sure.
Was this some kind of brush-off? Or did he just want me to hate him, to resent him because of his dad?
He didnโt look at me, didnโt say a word. The bitterness tightened in my chest as I thought about how easily heโd pushed me away. โHaydenโฆ did you already know about this? Is that why you broke up with me over what happened in Houston? Was itโjust an excuse?โ
โNo,โ he said firmly.
My eyes wavered. He looked down, watching the raindrops splatter on the ground. โIโm still investigating. If I find anythingโฆ Iโll tell you the whole truth. But right now, all we have is this report, and it names my father as the prime suspect.โ
I felt my breath hitch. โIfโฆ if Houston hadnโt happened, and we were standing here with this report, would you still have broken up with me?โ
He met my eyes, his gaze dark, almost haunted. โI donโt know. Maybeโฆ maybe I would.โ
โMaybeโ? What does maybe even mean?โ I demanded.
โBecause I donโt want you tied to the son of a murderer. I donโt want you carrying that weight over your own parents,โ he said, his throat bobbing as he swallowed, โKeira, maybe we were never meant to be together.โ
Fated, huh?
I stared at him, a hollow laugh escaping. โHayden, if you donโt want to be with me, you donโt need excuses or justifications. And donโt act like itโs for my sake.โ I looked him over, and suddenly, he felt like a stranger, even though he looked the same as ever.
Funny how just a few days apart could turn someone so familiar into someone so distant.
โI wonโt cling to you. If you want to break up, then fine, weโll break up. And as for whatever happened between our parents? Even if it was your fatherโs fault, I wonโt hold that against you,โ I said, glancing toward my parentsโ graves.
Theyโd always taught me that hate only breeds more hate.
Once, Iโd asked if they resented their own parents for abandoning them, for leaving them to grow up as orphans. Theyโd just laughed and said no. They told me that because of that life, theyโd met each other at the orphanage. And eventually, theyโd had me.
โHayden, youโre you, and your father is your father. I knew from the start my dadโs death might be connected to yours, but I still chose to be with you.โ I gave a small, tired smile. โWhen it came to loving you, I didnโt waver. I never once thought of leaving you over this.โ
I saw a flicker of emotion flash across his face, the turmoil in his eyes. My words hit hard.
So he did still love meโjust less than he feared I might not trust him.
Turning back, I took a few steps closer to my parentsโ gravestone. โMom, Dad, this report finally explains why you were taken, why you left so suddenly. But in the end, it doesnโt change anything. Youโre gone, youโre not coming back.โ
I placed the report down on their graves, watching as heavy raindrops soaked it, the ink bleeding and fading until the words blurred out of existence.
I looked back at Hayden. โGoodbye, Hayden.โ
That single goodbye closed the chapter. From this moment on, he was on his own, and so was I. No love. No hate. Justโฆ nothing.
Chapter 500