Chapter 815
It didnโt matter why anymore. Jace said Lindeyโs death was on him and Wayne, but deep down, I knew I wasnโt blameless. Sheโd treated me like her own daughter, but I kept my distance, too wrapped up in the pain of losing my parents.
Memories of her flashed through my mindโhow sheโd tried so hard to bring me back, sneaking me mini tarts, even making my favorite pumpkin custard this morning. Sheโd planned this. I could feel it. It was like someone ripped a hole in my chest, the cold cutting through me like knives.
Iโd resented her, sure. But Iโd never hated her. I wanted to tell her that. But now, I never could. Even if I said it, no one would hear me. Wayne tightened his grip on Jaceโs collar, like he was about to unload, but then let go. Jace stepped to Lindeyโs side, kneeling beside her. He smoothed her face, wiping the blood from her lips.
โMom, itโs okay,โ he whispered. โGo be with Dad now.โ
The funeral, set for 10:30, was delayed another hour. The Johnston living room turned into a mourning hall, with Matthew and Lindey lying side by side. Jace placed their hands together. They looked peacefulโlike they were just sleeping.
All the tension Iโd been holdingโthe fear that Wayne might pull something at the funeralโmelted into a heavy, crushing sadness. Iโd spent ten years in the Johnston residence, from kid to young adult. Matthew and Lindey had been there for all of it. Sure, theyโd taken my parents from me. But theyโd also given me their love, like they were trying to make up for what theyโd done.
Memories flooded backโLindey always keeping me close, proudly calling me her daughter when anyone asked. She wanted me to call her โMomโ so badly. But I never could. That word stuck in my throat for years. Itโs what she wanted mostโand what Iโll regret never giving her for the rest of my life.
I stepped forward, tears blurring my vision as I looked at her one last time. The word that had been buried so deep finally broke free.
โMomโฆ safe travels,โ
The tears streamed down, blinding me. By the time I wiped them away, she was goneโgone forever.
The funeral ended, and they were taken to be buried. As the caskets were lowered, Lena leaned in and whispered, โNothingโs happened.โ Her words jolted me. Wayne had been expected to pull something todayโbut nothing happened. Had Lindeyโs sudden death made him change his mind?
I glanced at Wayne. His red, swollen eyes told me heโd been crying. Then I looked at Jace. He was the complete oppositeโcalm, detached, like he didnโt feel a shred of grief. It was unsettling.
Finally, my gaze landed on Hayden. His face was unreadable, shrouded in something I couldnโt decipher. Since heโd arrived, he hadnโt come near me once, even though heโd had plenty of chances. Everything looked calm, but it didnโt feel that way.
โMaybe itโs better like this,โ I murmured. โLindey and Matthew can finally rest. Whatever sins they carried, it would all end once the earth covered their graves.โ
โPlease remove the ceremonial flowers from your lapels,โ the officiant instructed. One by one, people stepped forward, placing their flowers into the open graves. โFamily members, please proceed with the final rites,โ the officiant added, motioning to Wayne and Jace.
They knelt, each scooping a handful of soil. But just as they were about to scatter it, the wail of sirens cut through the air. Wayneโs hand shook. I turned to see police cars speeding toward us, officers pouring out.
โWeโve received a report of illegal dealings on these premises,โ one officer announced, loud and clear.