Chapter 183: What Have I Done to Him?
When I woke up, my head was pounding. The overwhelming disconnect between my body and mind from the hangover made everything feel unbearable. I groaned and clutched my head.
“Morning,” came a voice from beside me. I quickly opened my eyes and was shocked to find myself staring at Carter’s incredibly handsome face. My heart skipped a beat. Wait, why was I in his bed? No, more importantly, how did I end up here? I was so startled that I almost fell off the bed, but Carter grabbed my waist and pulled me back. I instinctively pressed my hands against his chest as I stuttered, “Last night, I…”
He stared into my eyes. “Do you forget everything?” His gaze made me feel uneasy. Did I do something I shouldn’t have last night? My mind was blank, and I couldn’t recall anything. I nervously asked, “Did I… do something to you?”
“Yes,” Carter answered without hesitation. My heart skipped a beat. I recalled the vivid dreams I’d had last night. Despite my physical age being 20, my mental age was 28. Had I lost control after drinking? Did I do something to a defenseless, disabled man? I was a beast! No, worse than that.
Shaking, I pulled back the covers and saw a large kiss mark on his exposed collarbone. I nervously asked, “Did I bite you?”
Carter let out a low hum, his voice deep and alluring. “What else did I do to you?”
“You threw up on me, ripped off my clothes, and then…” He didn’t finish, but his unfinished sentence flooded my mind with all kinds of enticing thoughts.
“Sorry, Carter. I got drunk last night,” I mumbled, feeling like a horrible person who’d just slept with someone for a night.
Carter blushed slightly, still lying in the sheets. “It’s okay. We’re married, so it’s normal to fulfill our duties.” I couldn’t believe what I was hearing from the usually distant Carter.
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“So, we really…” I trailed off, confused. I didn’t feel any different physically, unlike the discomfort I’d felt in my past life after a drunken night with Luke.
“No, I didn’t take advantage of you,” Carter said firmly. “You wouldn’t have been able to force me if I didn’t…”
I sighed in relief, glad that someone as honorable as Carter wouldn’t do anything to hurt me. But still, the thought of myself as a seductress while drunk was hard to swallow.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean for it to happen,” I apologized again.
He pulled me into his arms, the warmth from the sheets surrounding us as we hugged close in our thin nightclothes. “Zoey, I’m… a normal man. I have needs too,” he said.
I blushed and wished to stop myself from speaking.
“I can wait for you,” he brushed his hand against my cheek. “But don’t make me wait too long.”
The genuine look in his eyes made my heart skip a beat, and I blurted out, “So, how did you deal with it before we got married? Have you never been with anyone?”
“Never,” he replied firmly. “I’ve never been with any woman.”
I was even more shocked. With someone like him, Carter could have had any woman he wanted, even with his disability.
He leaned in, his voice playful. “Curious about how men manage their desires?” He took my hand, and I couldn’t help but blush.
“C-Carter…”
“Darling, you called me ‘Honey’ last night.” What? Was I that bold? I couldn’t remember any of it. Even when Luke and I were married, I never called him that. I was so embarrassed I couldn’t move, and Carter eventually let go of me.
“I’ll go to the bathroom.” In a panic, I quickly rushed out, not noticing the small smile on his face. Once in the bathroom, I splashed cold water on my face to cool down, but no matter how much I washed…
Chapter 183: What Have I Done to Him? (Continued)
I could still feel his touch lingering on my hands. It felt even more intense and clear than the brief touches I’d experienced before. The firmness and size of his manhood made me feel embarrassed and uneasy all over again. Was I truly going to have to deal with this in the future? I couldn’t do it!
Looking at myself in the mirror, I found my lips were red and slightly swollen. It was probably from biting his collarbone—what had I become? I felt like a beast.
As I looked at the shower partition, a scene flashed in my mind—two naked people kissing passionately under the misty shower. Gosh. I’d never drink again. I was even imagining things.
I stayed in the bathroom for nearly an hour before finally leaving. When I came out, Carter was dressed, and breakfast was ready. I couldn’t even look at him now, feeling so embarrassed.
He reached for my hand. “Come here.” Still confused, I gave him my hand. He led me to sit next to him, his face calm as usual. “Did I scare you?”
I stared out the window, still nervous. “I just can’t get used to this.”
“It’s okay. You’ll get used to it soon. After a few more times, it won’t feel so strange.”
I quickly turned to him, surprised by his words. Was he still the same man I knew? I couldn’t believe he was saying such bold things.
“You…” I was speechless in shock. He took advantage of my surprise, pulling me into his arms. I froze like a puppet.
“What are you so shy about? I’m your husband. It’s normal for us to be close. You were passionate last night.”
My face turned red again. “I–I don’t remember.”
“Zoey, I won’t pressure you. But don’t push me away either. Can we take things slow?”
I didn’t quite understand what he meant by taking it slow. Was it about emotions? After what happened with Luke, I didn’t think I could trust men again.
“I’m sorry,” I said seriously. “I don’t think I can ever love anyone again.”
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He gently cupped my face. “No, I’m talking about intimacy between a husband and wife.” Confused, I looked at him. He took my hand in his, his fingers strong and sure. Leaning close to my ear, I felt his warm breath against my skin.
“Zoey, if you’re not ready to talk about love, how about we focus on physical closeness? You’re a woman, you must have your desires.” His words were blunt, and I wasn’t sure how to respond.
“Darling, like this…” Before I could react, his lips pressed against mine.