โWhat should I do?โ I whispered to my wolf.
The way Levi had spoken, it felt like he had been carrying that thought in his head for a long time. I inhaled deeply and spoke into the mirror as I stared at my reflection.
Oliviaโs POV
I gave a faint shrug. โIโm fine.โ
That made me turn to her fully. โFor what?โ
She studied me for a long moment, her eyes calculating, then her tone shifted from harsh to a whisper. โFine,โ she said slowly, โif youโre so obsessed with those triplets, thereโsโฆ another way.โ
Her lips curved into the faintest of smiles. โYou marry Frederick. You give him the title of being your husband, the appearance of a perfect union. And behind closed doorsโฆ you keep your little affair with the triplets. No one has to know. Frederick wonโt careโas long as you play the part of his wife in public.โ
Still, the doubt lingered. My wolfโs words had planted a seed I didnโt like but couldnโt ignore. I thought of the way Leviโs eyes had dimmed earlierโฆ the way Louis had looked away instead of meeting my gaze. It was like theyโd been holding that thought in for a long time, like this wasnโt the first time theyโd wondered.
Before I could dwell on what had just happened, a knock came on my door, but the person didnโt wait for me to ask them in before they pushed the door open. When I looked at the door through the mirror, I realized it was Mother.
She scoffed. โThen on your dead body it shall be,โ she spat, before vanishing as suddenly as sheโd come.
Her eyes softened then, and for a moment I thought she might just leaveโฆ but instead, she spoke again. โI came here to apologize.โ
Motherโs frown deepened, her lips pressing into a thin line. โThis is about the triplets? I wonder what you see in themโฆ those men are not worthy of you. Do you even know who you are, Olivia? The blood that runs in your veins? You are destined for more than thisโฆ petty entanglement.โ
I didnโt answer. I just stood there, frozenโฆ confusedโฆ wondering if she was insane.
I glared at her through the mirror. โTheyโre not an entanglement. Theyโre my mates. And I love them.โ
A bitter reply threatened to spill from my mouth, but I swallowed it.
I arrived back in my room, and thankfully, no one was there. The quiet was a relief. I went straight to the shower, letting the warm water run over me, trying to wash away the heaviness clinging to my chest.
โI donโt care!โ I snapped, spinning to face her fully. โI donโt love him, I donโt want him, and I will never marry him!โ
โI donโt fucking care,โ I spat in spite. โI donโt love him, and I donโt want to be with him. Why is that so hard for you all to understand!โ
Swallowing the lump in my throat, I turned around as I watched her approach where I stood. As I stared at her, I didnโt know what to feelโฆ this woman was my mother. Ever since I knew of her existence, I had wanted to meet with herโฆ have a lot of deep conversations that only mothers and daughters have. But with herโฆ it felt different. Cold. Strained. Like we were strangers forced to share the same blood.
โJust leave the three of them and be with Lord Frederick,โ she hissed.
She scoffed softly, giving me a pitiful look. โLoveโฆ such a fragile, dangerous thing. It blinds you. And right now, itโs going to get you killed. Frederick can protect you in ways those three never could.โ
Her words hung in the air, heavy and poisonous, wrapping around my mind like smoke.
She took a step closer, her reflection now beside mine. โMaybe not. But you are the daughter of the Beckhamsโฆ my daughterโฆโ
I stared at her, stunned. โYouโre sayingโฆ I could marry himโฆ and stillโฆโ
The words hung in the air, and my chest tightened. โIs there a problem with that?โ I said, turning back toward the mirror. โIโm not a kid.โ
โOver my dead body,โ I gritted my teeth.
I frowned, my hands tightening around the edge of the dresser. โThatโs not fair,โ I whispered back. โI canโt justโฆ ration my love like itโs something I can measure. Theyโre all mine. Theyโre all part of me. I love them in my own way, differently, yesโbut not more, not less.โ
Suddenly, that voice rebounded in my headโฆ that voice which wasnโt that of my wolf.
No answer came this time. Just the steady thud of my heartbeat and the quiet hum of my thoughtsโthoughts I wished I could silence.
My frown deepened as I glared right at the mirror in front of me, as if I could see her in itโnot actually, but it was only my reflection.
โYou look troubled,โ she finally said, her tone soft but carrying that weight of authority she always wore like a crown.
She was silent for a moment before finally speaking. โMaybe you should give Lennox less attentionโฆ and more to Louis and Levi.โ
My brow furrowed. โWhat do you mean?โ
I sighed heavily and pressed my palms flat against the table, leaning closer to the mirror. โWhat am I supposed to do?โ I muttered again.
โYes,โ she said without hesitation, stepping closer. โYou get the safety, the power, the status. And you keep your lovers. Youโd have it all, Olivia. What do you think?โ
Afterward, I dressed in something simpleโa black denim skirt that stopped just above my knees and a fitted yellow off-shoulder top. I tied my hair into a neat ponytail, slipped on a pair of sandals, and stood for a moment in front of the mirror. But my mind wasnโt on my reflection.
โForโฆ what happened the last time we spoke,โ she said quietly, her gaze dropping to the floor. โBut whatever Iโm doing, itโs for your own good, Oliviaโฆ your life is in danger if you donโt marry Frederick. And besides, Lord Frederick is a good manโฆโ
As I adjusted my top, the earlier confrontation with the triplets replayed in my mind. I couldnโt understand why Levi and Louis thought I loved Lennox more than them. Iโd never shown favoritismโฆ at least, not intentionally. Yes, I loved them differently, but never more or less. Orโฆ was I doing something wrong without realizing it? Was it my words? My actions? My reactions?
She stopped just a step away from me, her eyes scanning me as if trying to read what was in my mind. I didnโt speak. I didnโt trust my voice not to crack.