Chapter 219

Everything Jonathan said was true. There were some huge misunderstandings between us, but no matter how many there were, it didn’t change the fact that I was once hurt.

“I was also hurt, Elise,” Jonathan said softly, cupping my face in his hands. “We’re just like a pair of hedgehogs, but I’m willing to put away my spikes.”

My mind was a mess, so I didn’t give him an answer for now. Jonathan wasn’t in a hurry either, though. He simply gave me space and showed me concern and consideration without overstepping any boundaries. He had only just regained consciousness, so I told him not to overly concern himself with me. Although he always agreed, he was still aware of everything that concerned me, no matter how trivial the matter.

I assumed he was only behaving like this because of the child in my belly, but I later realized that I wasn’t the only petty one between the two of us. He was as well, and it had shown early into our marriage. After our marriage, I constantly felt insecure and thus did a lot of things that annoyed him.

“I always thought that we started off on the wrong foot. You ended up with me because of an accident, and there were countless other women out there who were more outstanding than me. I was afraid that after you saw them, you would think little of me…”

I couldn’t resist spilling my guts to him. “The worlds we live in are too different, Jonathan. Back then, I couldn’t adjust to my new circumstances in time either, which is why I suggested a divorce. You weren’t entirely at fault. I had my own issues too, and I just didn’t want to allow myself to continue spiraling.”

At the mention of that incident, Jonathan expressed his regret as well. “The thought of eyeing up other women never crossed my mind, Elise. I’ve liked you for a long time, but just never found the opportunity to confess.

“In your eyes, what happened that day was an accident. However, have you ever considered that if I had really been drunk, I would never have—”

My eyes widened, and I cut him off. “What do you mean by that? Were you not drunk that day?”

I had always felt guilty for that incident. He looked so drunk that day that he didn’t seem to be able to recognize anyone. On the other hand, I was only tipsy and very much clear-headed. In other words, I had taken advantage of his vulnerability.

Now that he had confessed to this, the guilt weighing down my heart vanished instantly. “Since you were sober, why didn’t you say so earlier, Jonathan? I always assumed I was taking advantage of you!”

Jonathan smiled apologetically. “I was in my early 20s back then, Elise. I didn’t want to deal with rejection, so I had no choice but to test the waters using such a method… But I won’t do something like that now.”

I couldn’t help but say accusingly, “If you had told me that earlier, I wouldn’t have developed an inferiority complex, let alone done such foolish things.”

He put my hand over his heart. “Yes, I was also incredibly foolish. I clearly liked you, yet I always acted like I didn’t care in the hopes that I could have you twisted around my little finger…

“I was well aware that you didn’t like Alicia, but I chose to think that you were making an unnecessary fuss instead of resolving your conflict with Grandpa. I made many mistakes, Elise, and I misunderstood a lot of things too.

“If you hadn’t lost your memories, I would still be unaware of how outrageous my actions were…”

Jonathan and I talked for a long time that day, both keen on clearing the air between us. I ended up falling asleep before I knew it. I was already six months along in my pregnancy at this point, and my belly was noticeably round. Jonathan picked me up from behind and set me gently on the bed.

I woke up and subconsciously wrapped my arms around his neck, murmuring softly, “Thank you.”

Jonathan looked at me solemnly before suddenly leaning down to kiss me on the lips. I said nothing and simply indulged in the kiss. After who knew how long, he finally let go of me. My face was slightly red at that point.

“Let’s not get divorced, alright, Elise?” Jonathan whispered cajolingly in my ear, his voice hoarse.