My legs went weak, and I staggered back, but Ryan grabbed me, pulling me desperately into his arms. He held me so tight, his voice rough and intense as he spoke right against my ear, every word rumbling up from his chest. โIโll marry her. Iโll rise to the top. I swear, I wonโt let anyone use my love for you as a weapon to hurt you.โ
I buried myself in his embrace, unable to stop the tears pouring down my face.
I gripped his shirt tightly, my mind wiped completely blank, all thoughts gone.
โRyan, we shouldnโt see each other anymore. I donโt want you spending the rest of your life with regret or resentment. Itโs alright. As long as we stay apart, the Chamberlain family wonโt come after me, and youโฆ you can move on with your life,โ I said, my voice steady after the panic faded.
Ryan lowered his head and pressed a kiss to my forehead, his voice rough. โFrom now on, life wonโt ever be the same.โ
I struggled to lift my head from his arms, meeting his eyes.
His eyes looked like theyโd just weathered a storm, a cold glint flickering in them. He reluctantly pinched my cheek, unable to hide how much he hated letting go. โDonโt worry. I wonโt stand in your way if you find someone else who loves you, Vic. I finally get itโstaying alive matters more than love. No matter where you end up in this world, as long as I know youโre out there, alive, thatโs enough for me.โ
I blinked, my eyes stinging with tears. I looked down and let out a shaky sigh. โWhy does it have to be like this, Ryan? Iโm sorry. I never shouldโve come into your lifeโall I did was bring you pain and resentment.โ
Tears poured down my face as I shook my head, blaming myself. โIf only weโd never met that day in Shariport, maybe none of this wouldโve happened.โ
โVic, donโt say that. If I hadnโt met you, I never wouldโve known what it truly means to love someone,โ Ryan said, his fingers gently brushing away my tears, even though they just kept falling. He stared at his hand, now wet from my crying, and the cold glint in his eyes grew sharper, like something inside him was breaking.
โAlright, donโt cry anymore. I donโt ask for anything elseโjust let me see you in my dreams from time to time,โ Ryan said softly, taking a step back. โIf fate ever brings us together again someday, and youโre still single, Iโll be the one to rekindle what we had.โ
With those words, he suddenly cupped my face and pressed a lingering kiss to my lips. โBut for now, I have to return to my own battlefield.โ
โRyanโฆโ I called out after him, my voice low and urgent, as he turned to leave.
But he was already gone, vanishing down the hallway.
My legs went numb, and I lurched toward the door, only to run straight into Jared.
Jared stared at me, baffled by how shaken I looked. โWhatโs wrong? Is he dumping you or something?โ
โDid he go downstairs?โ I croaked, my voice barely holding together.
โYeah, he did. If you want to talk to him, Iโll call him right now,โ Jared said, immediately pulling out his phone.
โNoโฆโ I stopped him, slumping against the wall, completely drained. โJared, I want to go back to Hachester with you.โ
Jaredโs face lit up, pure joy flickering in his eyes. โSeriously? Youโre not just trying to cheer me up, are you?โ
I shook my head, my voice steady. โNo, I mean it. I want to go back to Hachester.โ
Jared grinned. โDeal, Ms. Murphy. Next year, weโll just stay in Hachester.โ
Jared could see how down I was, and he kept pressing me about what went down between me and Ryan. He just couldnโt figure out how Iโd been totally fine a minute ago, and now it was like my soul had been sucked outโleaving me completely silent.
My head was spinning, with anxiety, unease, sadness, and despair all fighting for space inside me. Things only got worse, and by that afternoon, I ended up in the hospital. Jared never left my side, sticking with me through it all.
In the hospital room, Jared stood by my bedside, unmoving, like a statue. He kept his eyes glued to the IV drip, his brow furrowed so tight it looked like he could crush a bug between them.
After a nap, I woke up, my gaze empty as I stared at the ceiling, feeling completely numb inside.
Jared finally lost his patience, his voice rising with frustration. โCome on, just be straight with meโdid he say something really stupid?โ